Today I woke up early. On a Saturday. I saw the sunrise. I did a killer workout. My head felt clear and I noticed my eyes looked bright. I think I am starting to feel like myself again, and I like it.
After helping my cousin pick out her wedding dress (the most perfect dress I could imagine for her!), I helped my husband pick out office furniture, then met some friends for — “drinks.” I was a tiny bit nervous about what I was going to say, about how I’d feel being out without ordering wine, etc. Luckily the girls I was meeting are friends from my old yoga studio, and it’s pretty normal for them to not be drinking off and on for whatever reason. I ordered a pomegranate soda and an appetizer and just relaxed.
And… it was fine. I am not going to kid myself and think that this means I am going to feel fine every time, or with every friend. I’m also not going to lie and say I didn’t have a few moments where I longed to at least just take a sip of their wine. But I didn’t. And I realized that I still laughed, connected, and loved their company. That it really wasn’t that big of a deal. That I could just be me.
Then I got in my car and drove home, worry-free.
Not too bad. Week three, here I come.
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