Two weeks today…

Today I woke up early.  On a Saturday.  I saw the sunrise.  I did a killer workout.  My head felt clear and I noticed my eyes looked bright.  I think I am starting to feel like myself again, and I like it.

After helping my cousin pick out her wedding dress (the most perfect dress I could imagine for her!), I helped my husband pick out office furniture, then met some friends for — “drinks.”  I was a tiny bit nervous about what I was going to say, about how I’d feel being out without ordering wine, etc.  Luckily the girls I was meeting are friends from my old yoga studio, and it’s pretty normal for them to not be drinking off and on for whatever reason.  I ordered a pomegranate soda and an appetizer and just relaxed.

And… it was fine.  I am not going to kid myself and think that this means I am going to feel fine every time, or with every friend.  I’m also not going to lie and say I didn’t have a few moments where I longed to at least just take a sip of their wine.  But I didn’t.  And I realized that I still laughed, connected, and loved their company.  That it really wasn’t that big of a deal.  That I could just be me.

Then I got in my car and drove home, worry-free.

Not too bad.  Week three, here I come.

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