Other than being ever so slightly hungry, I feel like a million bucks, seriously! I can’t believe how good my body feels for giving it this gift of cleansing. It has made abstaining from alcohol easier the past couple of days, because I’m focused on the cleanse and detoxing. For the past four days, I’ve been drinking fresh juices and water, with mixes made from veggies and fruits like carrot, celery, apple, kale, parsley, beet, pear, ginger, chard, cucumber, and oranges. I’ve never felt so healthy since I was a child. It’s weird. My vision even seems clearer! I have a natural energy that I know I’ve felt before but it’s been so many years that it’s a foreign feeling.
Today is a bit hard, only because it’s Saturday and the husband and I are lounging around the house with no plans other than to relax and watch a movie or two tonight. He just went to pick himself up a burrito (swoon) and some organic berries and mint for me to make myself a dessert juice. Sounds good, right? It’s going to be my mock wine. Only better. But seriously, lounging around the house with time to relax definitely makes me want to drink. I associate relaxing with wine. It’s the weekend! Relax! Pour a glass of pinot and have some lovely cheese and crackers! (Okay now I’m really making it harder on myself.) I’m wondering when those thoughts will dissipate, or if they ever will. It’s a learned behavior — for so long I’ve had wine to relax at home. I’ve loved nothing more than to curl up in front of a favorite show or good movie, snack away on something fun and delicious, and wash it down with some fancy wine. I live in wine country after all! It’s a way of life here.
I need to experience the discomfort of creating new habits, and it’s hard. (Whine.) Today in yoga my teacher kept saying that the true practice of yoga is to experience happiness in times of discomfort. In a challenging pose, for example. That concept translates to life off the mat and I find it extremely useful to meditate on it when the cravings hit hard. I am happier sober. This has proven itself to be true, time and time again. If I can breathe through the craving, breathe in that happiness I feel when I wake up hangover free in the morning, and breathe out the craving, breathe out that urge for a vice whose happiness is a lie, it helps.
On that yoga-geek note, I’m excited to say that I’ve signed up to start my training to attain my yoga teacher 200 hour certification! This is something I’ve wanted to do ever since I really started a regular practice in May of 2011, and I’ve decided that this is the perfect time to dive in. So I’ll be busy for five weekends starting in February. When I am practicing regularly, I am better able to handle everything, including quitting drinking. Plus, having yoga training on weekends is that much extra incentive to be alcohol free… drinking and yoga teacher training just do not go hand in hand.
Staying focused on my goals and breathing through the hard parts… that’s my mantra today. What helps you through a difficult craving?